insomniac's entry

well technically, i fell asleep with the kids at 8 and woke up just now, so i guess it's not really an insomniac's entry...but it had such a nice ring to it. anyway, ella's birthday came and went. we're celebrating officially this sunday with a small group of friends since dave is in mexico this week on a "school trip." yes, he's abandoned me (with two kids)  to "swim with the whale sharks."  it felt strange to pass through a special day like yesterday without him. i roundly let him know that in a text message - though he won't be able to read it til he gets back.

do you love this photo of ella as much as i do? she's in the tutu stage of toddlerhood and we've gone a whole 2 weeks straight with the tutu on over every outfit. it dresses up anything (like the dirty fleece pants and pullover above). i wish i had a tutu! it's also very cyndi lauper. and what isn't cool about cyndi lauper.

i spent the last few days organizing my house (the smell of spring always does that, doesn't it?) and it felt great. but why do i feel like i've just opened pandora's box of things to clean? now that the kitchen's all organized, i kinda feel like tackling the garage. the kids' playroom. or maybe even...my closet? er, maybe not the closet. in any case, it doesn't seem so insurmountable since the kitchen's been conquered, but then i've added a dozen more projects to my life! add to that, rye is booked with playdates and birthday parties til may! may?! the kid is only 4 and has more of a social life than i do.

which brings me to my final whine: i'm overwhelmed with work. as thrilled as i am that the business is flying, it was only supposed to be a side thing. i wish i could devote myself either full-time to the business or full-time to motherhood. it's hard 'cause i adore both so much for different reasons. i have the best of both worlds in my current set-up, but there are so many conflicts, so many compromises, and each have suffered due to my obligations to the other. i think one solution will be to have a partner. anyone know someone who'd be interested in building this thing up with me?

and a real quick movie recommendation: ghost town with tea leoni and ricky gervais. dave and i loved it. we haven't laughed that much in awhile.